Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Been felling pretty moody these days and no its not pms, its one of those girl moments where you feel pretty fucked.

get ready for some mind pouring reading.

I don't rlly know what im feeling at this very moment, its like, a whole fucking mess. Im feeling very paranoid, like the whole world is out to get me, well call me a drama queen for all i care, but thats kinda how i feel. Its like i know i have moved on but its hard to walk away from all those times, since we had so many memories at many places, being at those memorable places brings back memories like im watching a re-run of those memories. I have been said to have dreaming eyes, and its true im huge day dreamer, i often think about him , its become more of a habit i suppose. I often ask myself, what 'if's questions, what if i didnt pop the question? what if i started talking to him? what if..? it is true that i am happier then i was before but still , i regret not doing what i should have done.
no use regretting though, in the words of Shakespeare
'whats done is done'

I can be such a huge hypocrite i time, like i prolly can be the biggest, ill be dissing one thing, and then doing it the next thing u know it. I know what you're thinking 'what a byoootch'
but whatev , i really couldnt be fired up about stupid insignificant things in my life. Right now all i want is to graduate from high school with a satisfactory grade in my O levels, get my effing drivers license , and get into a good college, and of course more of partying and so on.

Anyways about today, i did have fun, but wasnt as much fun since i felt kinda left out being the non vietnamese in the group. There was me, Thao, her sweet grandmum and her friend who flew in from Vietnam recently, tbh i forgotten her name, darn these vietnamese names, its so hard to remember. well i apologise for that, but she real cute, and reminds me a whole lot like Thao, except thao's probably much crazier. So went to meet at with her at Lot 10, went shopping for a while, ate, and then went to times square for more shopping action. I bought a new dress and a new half jacket with some hair bands and accessories. I brought Rm80 and manage to save Rm1, well yeah if it wasnt for the fucking taxi's and such i would have manage to save at least Rm10, enough to buy another shirt on sale.

So im pretty satisfied with what i bought, though i wish i didnt spend so much =/ yes i rarely go shopping, its my mum who usually comes out with the cash, not me xD im such a mummys girl at times.

sorry folks, no pictures today (:

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